“All of a sudden I realised that I had just done something that separated me from the human race and it was something which could never be undone. I realised that from that point on I could never be like normal people. I must have stood there in that state for 20 minutes. I have never felt an emptiness of self like I did right then and I will never forget that feeling. It was like I crossed over into a realm I could never come back from.“
